Never Shall I

My Darling – March

I shall never forget that day,
When we met each other.
It felt like a distant memory,
As time passed us by slowly,
Like a warm summer night’s breeze.
We talked everyday,
And got to know one another better.

One day,
You told me that you loved me.
I stared at you jokingly,
As if it was just a dream,
A dream that I cannot understand.
Shocked like I was truck by lightning,
I stood still as you told me that your heart desires me,
Longs for me,
My heart,
My soul.

I began avoiding you,
Unable to accept the truth,
For I can give nothing more than friendship.
Perhaps that friendship was lost,
As I distanced myself from you.
I hid from you,
And tried to avoid you because I was confused by your actions.
I guess I cannot completely understand myself,
Nor my thoughts.

More time passed,
But you kept your persistence.
I slapped you,
Hurt you,
To make you want me,
Love me.
I did not know what had gotten into me,
As I was thrown,
Tossed into a whirlpool of darkness,
A place you cannot save me from.
Without guiding me,
I was lost,
Defenseless.

Never have I felt so alone,
The pain pierced through my heart,
As I saw you walk away,
Holding the hands of another.

I wish I could turn time back,
To that day when we first met,
And perhaps,
You will be able to accept me.
But until then,
Until that day when I can tell you that I am sorry,
I shall never forget you…
…My love.



...I am sorry.